Here I am again. Broken-hearted. Confused. And, scared. Why? For the 2nd time in 3 years, I find myself unexpectedly unemployed. And it hurts— a lot.
A LOT is going on right now, and I’m NOT the only one affected, but for the sake of this post, I will be selfish. I owe myself that much.
I was given the news no one wanted to get two weeks ago. It was a complete shock, and I didn’t handle it well, on the inside, that is. No one else knew how, deep down, I was crushed, angry, bewildered, and ultimately left with a lot of uncertainty. Uncertainty and I do NOT get along. Not even a little bit. I’m very type-A and NEED to know everything, step by step, with all the why’s and how’s predefined. It’s just in my DNA. So, to be told that in two weeks that I would no longer have employment anymore, more specifically, the role I truly cherished and was honestly beginning to feel “my groove” was gut-wrenching, and again, I didn’t know how to take it. My biggest question that came to mind was “Why,” but that isn’t typically a question that anyone can answer, and even if someone tried, the person on the receiving end, i.e., me, wouldn’t know how to receive said answer anyway. It all equals = you no longer have a role here.
This isn’t my first rodeo, though. I’ve been here before. Going back three years, I was laid off from what I believed at the time to be my dream opportunity. It was my dream opportunity, and I don’t regret the short seven months I had this opportunity, but it was ripped away from me far too soon. You can read all about it here. No one can conclusively prove their worth or stretch their wings in 7 months – Same for my current situation. I had a year, but that was nowhere near enough. I had a very complicated role with a very complex organization. As I said previously, I was getting in my groove and aligning on projects that were near and dear to my heart, not to mention being able to see things through. And the people. Yes, the people that I grew quite fond of, gone in a second. Again, gut punch.
All this being said, this wasn’t even the worst part, though. How was I going to explain this to my husband? How was I going to explain how and why I was, yet again, in this position? How was I going to explain how in one day, I can tell a family member how much I love my job, the company, essentially relishing in the fact that I had a “dream job,” and then within 24 hours being told I was being let go? How does one explain that? Guess what? You don’t. It can’t be explained, and it can’t be justified, to me anyway, or to those directly affected. However, these are business decisions that aren’t made lightly, and these decisions are never easy. I can respect that. So, here I am. Still confused. Still broken-hearted. But, I’m not entirely broken. Not by a long shot.
I know my worth, and I know what I can contribute to a company, big, small, startup, multi-national conglomerate, doesn’t matter – I know the timing of all this couldn’t be lousier. Still, there are far more important things going on in the world for me to drowning in my self-pity. I’m NOT the only one without a dream job right now. Hell, I’m not the only one without a job right now. But, like so many other folks, I’m looking. And I’m looking hard. Not because I need a paycheck (although that is helpful!), but more so because I enjoy my career. I would dare to say that I’m “addicted” to my work. Maybe it’s my built-in work ethic, but I love what I do and look forward to each and every day that I put into my career, even on my bad days. I look forward to logging into my email (what, only 100 emails?), checking my crazy calendar, realizing I have to skip lunch because I’m back to back meetings all day, and I need to prep, and having work that never seems to let up. All of it. It’s what keeps me motivated, and my work, my career, gives me energy. It gives me my zen, and I want it back!
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To sum up, here’s where I stand, and this is what I can promise (to myself)…
I can do this. I can navigate this current climate, and I will come out the other side better than ever. It will be hard, and I will have to be diligent, but I’m persistent, and I go after what I want. I’m not shy, and I’m not afraid of a challenge. I wrote an open letter to Jeff Weiner for goodness sakes! Wonder if he read it? Not the point… the point is, I will use my networking skills to be the best of my ability, and I will NOT be afraid to reach out to others for guidance. I can do this.
And, YOU CAN DO THIS, TOO! If you’re in the same situation as me, like so many others, first know that you’re not alone. You will be OK, and you CAN do this! 🙌
If you know anyone looking for a passionate, hyperactive and energetic, rockstar that can manage and lead teams, provide business, operations, and/or administrative management, or maybe even a Chief of Staff and/or Sr. Executive Assistant to a rockstar executive, please reach out to me! I’m open to relocation as well, granted it’s the right opportunity. Let’s chat about it!
Networking is the name of the game, and I’m planning to utilize my connections as best as I can, and I ask that you, please do the same. Not just for me. Please support all the men and women that are in this exact situation – We’re all in this together!
WE CAN DO THIS!